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...yes, it's an ugh kind of day. So, I made myself make a coulple Polaroid self portraits. This one...just straight on, no frills. Guess I had to convince myself I didn't look as crappy as I feel. The creative juices are all dried right up...in the heat of transition, paperwork, and everything it takes to move into a new life (what do they say? divorce ranks up there just after death of a loved one as far as stress levels go...). In addition, emotions I thought I'd left behind are rearing their ugly heads again...oy. It's hard to be the person I want to be, when I feel so beat up...the temptation to throw a tantrum is very great! Oh yeah, include the erratic fluctuations of hormones via menopause into the mix...haha! *sigh*
I'm doing a lot of self talk these days. Little pep talks in my head...trying very hard to convince myself I'm ok...that everything will be ok...egbok, ya know?