The world, my world, feels far less safe and secure than it did even six months ago. Who knows what the future holds? I'm heartened by the coming together of so many. The passion and determination to stand up for what is right is...wonderful. But every day...oof.
Living alone, the sense of uncertainty is exacerbated. As someone who experiences varying degrees of anxiety, well, it's challenging. What if? What if? I'm so far from my family.
Every day, I let myself feel and express (within the confines of my private space) whatever it is that needs to release. A lot of heartache, frustration, fear and loneliness driven tears...sobs really. How strange. What a path to walk. Oy.
Creative work has been a saving grace. I've begun reworking some old, fabric cyanotype prints. After seeing a post by my cousin, of a small piece she was stitching, I thought, yes, something meditative for my hands. The prints called for embellishment to represent power...something that feels a bit diminished in me at the moment. So I've started some colorful stitching on these pieces and will work in beading in sections as well. And while I've been mindfully working away on these, other ideas for larger and more detailed pieces started forming in my brain. I have four of these (two shown in one of the pictures below) so I'll be busy for a while before the larger work starts to come together.
I also pulled out my polaroid pack film camera and made a few goop images...self portraits. I hardly make self portraits right now. That used to be such a common thing. To be honest, I don't much look at myself in the mirror during the course of the day either. It's not that I make the effort to avoid it, it's just that I don't have much interest (thankfully, not many other people have to see me during the day and Avery doesn't seem to care how I look!). It was good to make these, though...a little check in. Yes, I'm still here. Yes, I'm haven't devolved into a completely disheveled state. Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating, but how would I know, huh?
There were five sets of color negatives I got through scanning recently, as well. One roll is dated back to October, but it's cool. I like many of the images I brought back from California, taken in December. Makes me homesick a bit, but I enjoy them nonetheless. I need to shoot more here...once spring arrives. Photo encaustics to be made from some of these new images, definitely. I do like working with the wax and the more I do it, the better. That's another place where my mind sort of wanders while I'm doing the work. Not wandering in the sense that I'm not being mindful, but in a way that my brain is relaxed and other ideas emerge.
Oh, and while I'm here, another plug for Snowflake Bienniale , in Philadelphia, in which I have two photo encaustic pieces and Ipseity in Old Town Alexandria at the Target Gallery (Torpedo Factory) in which I have a larger cyanotype print.
I think that's all the news fit to print...here at the tail end of January...already!
new photo encaustic pieces
embellishing fabric cyanotype pieces