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Posted at 05:26 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)
Plants related to the ancestors, to the grandmothers. Poppy seed and buckwheat groats. I grow them less for actual harvest and more because they delight me and help me to connect to lives I never knew. Who were these people, especially the line of mothers, that I never had the chance to speak with? They live in my imagination, rather than my memory. I'm sure they were flawed, as are we all, so in their archetype-ness they can do no wrong...offering only wisdom and beauty. I see (feel?) them in these plants in particular, so connected they are to their historical homeland.
The first bread seed poppy of the year bloomed this morning. I've been watching the buds for a couple weeks now. I saw the purple out in the garden as I lifted the blinds this morning, and knew the first thing I wanted to do was go catch its essence.
Posted at 11:19 AM | Permalink | Comments (0)
This is the other place my creative efforts are happening right now. I went shopping today...to the Russian deli and the International Grand Mart. I'm stocked up on poppy seeds, buckwheat, soy sauce, rice vinegar, and all sorts of other goodies. Consequently, there are stuffed stuffed cabbage rolls in the oven right now. Time for dinner!
Posted at 06:26 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)
I don't know...paradise sounds a bit extreme. Manifesting a vision is probably more accurate.
I spend a lot of time in the garden, doing nothing (based on appearances). The truth of the matter is that in the stillness my heart is connecting to the space and guiding me in its creation. Then again, maybe I'm just lazy (no, that's not true...lacking in energy at times, fatigued, yes but lazy, no). It's a matter of observation, noticing what plants are doing well and where, how much light is actually getting to different areas, how compacted the soil might still be, and last but not least, how delighted I am in the way things are shaping up. How does this garden feel?
I garden for the joy of it, but also because I like to grow my own flowers, herbs, vegetables and fruits. The fact that I'm surrounded by big trees has created a tricky situation, but I've accepted that harvests will probably never reach the volume I'd like. There are only so many places with decent sunshine. However, there is a loveliness to living in a little woodland as well...so there's that (not during a storm, maybe, but all other times). It can be magical.
So...Avery and I are all into the simple joy of hanging out and doing nothing in our botanical wonderland.
Posted at 06:07 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)
How are you coping? Are you feeling okay? How is your motivation? Have you been able to see any of your loved ones? Do you feel hopeful at all?
It's been weird, hasn't it? I find myself being "for the most part okay". It's certainly been a weird time to be tapering off the SSRI I've been on (there are reasons for it...I'm not morally opposed or anything). I know I've had more longing than in a while. But it's hard to tell where that's coming from. In general, my sense of loneliness has been exacerbated. And when I read posts about families or couples in isolation together, I can't deny I'm a tad envious. Sure, it's a mixed bag...but still.
All that being said, I am doing okay...just moving from day to day, staying occupied (even if not particularly creative). I've been puttering in the garden a lot, which is doing pretty well, if not confused by the back and forth in temperatures. I had to mow the front yard and now it's all tidy and nice. Avery was supervisor, of course, so we're both ready to relax this evening.
Posted at 05:56 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)
It poured during the night. I don't think I've heard rain that loud in a while. Thankfully, it wasn't stormy. And when I got up this morning I could feel the temperature and humidity change. The windows looked dirtier than usual on account of a fine layer of condensation!
All that precipitation and the added warmth has made the garden happy. I suspect there may be a growth spurt among some of the plants, with newly sown (in pots) seeds all getting the sprouting going as well. The warm weather plants have waited long enough!
Posted at 04:46 PM | Permalink | Comments (0)