how are you?

How are you coping?  Are you feeling okay?  How is your motivation?  Have you been able to see any of your loved ones?  Do you feel hopeful at all?

It's been weird, hasn't it?  I find myself being "for the most part okay".  It's certainly been a weird time to be tapering off the SSRI I've been on (there are reasons for it...I'm not morally opposed or anything).  I know I've had more longing than in a while.  But it's hard to tell where that's coming from.  In general, my sense of loneliness has been exacerbated.  And when I read posts about families or couples in isolation together, I can't deny I'm a tad envious.  Sure, it's a mixed bag...but still.

All that being said, I am doing okay...just moving from day to day, staying occupied (even if not particularly creative). I've been puttering in the garden a lot, which is doing pretty well, if not confused by the back and forth in temperatures.  I had to mow the front yard and now it's all tidy and nice.  Avery was supervisor, of course, so we're both ready to relax this evening.