Many, many years ago, a number of my photographs ended up on Flickr's Explore page. Over time, with more and more people on the site, and with me not adding to groups and such (which garner more image views), my photos stopped appearing there. In fact, over the past several years, I've not even thought about that page.
This morning I checked my Flickr stats and was rather shocked to find the views had jumped profoundly. It took a while, but I discovered a few photos had landed in Explore for October 22. I think this was owing to 'RoidWeek and the fact that I'd taken part in the interviews on the Flickr blog. It's kinda weird. I mean, I'm happy people are looking at my images, but it's definitely a more alien experience for me. It makes me think, "oh, now I need to up my game" which is totally not the case, haha!
In more ways than one, it feels like I'm stretching myself. I'm working hard both physically and mentally...and being my own cheer leader emotionally (which can be daunting). Without the foundation of close, intimate, home based relationship however, my edges feel like they're fraying a bit. I can't tell if what I'm experiencing is physical or psychological in nature. There's an ungroundedness, a buzz of energy that doesn't feel rooted in substance, almost a light headedness. It could be I just wore myself out yesterday pushing through a few hours of manual labor in my yards. The body just might be telling me to slow down, or even stop for a day. But it pushes into anxiety territory that has the potential to spin my head off in "something's really wrong with me" territory. I do have a physical coming up next week, so I think until then I need to reinstate some meditation, stretching and breath exercises...perhaps that will help.
In the mean time...more photos, more art, and the creative stuff that uses energy constructively...
Comments