It’s been a busy day…doctor appointment, Costco to arrange for new tires, then home and barreling through cutting the front lawn.
The lawn was probably the most physically taxing (sure had grown a lot in almost two weeks) but the most stress free. Medical appointments are never fun because of my health anxiety, but I’m being responsible about taking care of myself. The tires were kind of a surprise and quick decision, but the old ones have fifty thousand miles on them and winter will be coming. My blood pressure was up more than I expected which I found slightly disturbing (given I typically run low), but I was pretty amped when it was taken.
I’ve started back on escitalopram for my mental health. This past year has been tough and I can see that I truly need the assist. I’m hoping in the next month or two I’ll feel more grounded and inspired. I was talking to a friend the other day, a writer, and I mentioned that while some people can use their emotional struggles as fodder for creative work, that’s not how it is for me. He agreed that depression but more so anxiety, can be stunting for the creative process. I have always felt better able to make art while feeling safe and grounded. Anxiety is just too distracting.
Back to this moment…after working on the yard I came in and took my second shower for the day. Avery and I are now taking it easy for the afternoon. They say we’ll be getting remnants of hurricane Ida, including a slight risk of tornadoes. We shall see. But after that, it’s looking like lovely autumnal weather will be arriving by the end of the week.
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